Lame title, but how are you supposed to think of cool things to say all the time? So my live now is changing semi-drasticly but not really enough to make a fuss over. Im moving to salt lake for the summer and working part-time at a salad and sandwich shop. Samwitch is how i originally tried spelling that. (Perhaps its not as phonetic as i supposed.) I am making 7 dollars/hour. A bit of a pay cut really. Im renting out my condo in logan to a married couple. I feel really lucky that I found them. They are a normal-type mormon couple. We've been getting electric and plumbing stuff done to put in a washer/dryer hook-up, which is a good up-grade for the resale value. Or so they say.
Eric is moving to Duchesne. He is my boyfriend. It might be hard for me to not live near a person who i like. it seems a bit sad really.
Im going to start doing hair in Slc within a week or so. Or maybe bountiful. we'll see.
Man my life is boring to write about. sorry. It seems more eventful in my mind. maybe a picture might cheer this blog up a bit.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
I didn't die. but it seems like it.
Its been a little bit of time since i blogged. I can't even think of interesting things to think about, let alone share with the world wide web. So here is a nice little blog of random pictures. Pictures are words (the old saying goes). Kidding- i don't know how that saying goes. I really don't like sayings that much anyway.
These are mostly of Peru. I loved Peru. It was a beautiful country. It was so fun being with my cousin Andrea. We always learn a lot about ourselves and each other when we go on little adventures. It's always funny and semi-dramatic. We love each other.
These are mostly of Peru. I loved Peru. It was a beautiful country. It was so fun being with my cousin Andrea. We always learn a lot about ourselves and each other when we go on little adventures. It's always funny and semi-dramatic. We love each other.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
lots of different
these are pictures from the bus...
Town center in Cusco
Me and Andrea
We are in Cusco, which is a beautiful town in the mountains. Its close to Machu Pichu and we are going on a 4 day trek today to see it. im so excited! For those of you who are wondering, we haven't performed yet. But it will happen soon. (maybe-maybe not.)
Traveling is so fun. I meet so many good people, and everyone has thier own understanding of life and the world. It makes you open your mind to every way of life, and to value it even when its so compleatly opposite of what you know. The Peruvians are beautiful. They are kind and want to talk- which i find to be so much easier this time than in Guatemala. Peruvians talk really slow and don't use slang which makes it easier to understand. i really have learned so much more spanish because of having a base of the language. Its fun. It makes me want to be fluent.
Hopefully Ill get to post some pictures of this trek thing as its happening. Its going to be cool i think. I have had some pretty intence stomach issues, and they are still with me. (They as in the parasites). But i don't feel sick, I just process things very quickly:) I guess its pretty typical for travelers here. Any way-
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Peru, Peru
Its 3am here in Lima on a saturday night, and the city is as awake as it was at 10. Its kinda fun being in a city like this. It makes me feel productive somehow... So me and cousin Andrea spent 2 days in Lima, then went down to the Nazca Lines for 2 days and are back in lima. I bet you are wondering "what are these nazca lines she writes of?" I will tell you.
These are lines and figures etched into the sand by aliens hundreds, maybe millions of years ago. They are shrouded in mystery. The 4 questions are: how did the lines and figures get there, and why are they only visible from the sky? and why does one look like a cute little alien waving, and others look like UFO runways? think about those questions... Ill post some pics. really, knowone believes their aliens, we just think they are:)
this is the waving one.
I found pieces of this little doll scattered across the desert.
Andrea bought a guitar today. We will now be preforming on the streets for money. we are fairly nervous, but thrilled at the possibilities of a Peruvian talent scout discovering us.
Tomorrow we go to Cuzco. im really excited about that place. Lima is so dry. We drove 7 hours to Nazca and there were probably 6 living plants that i saw along the way. maybe a bit more, but really mostly sand dunes. There were little dead trees planted along the road, probably as some city's 'beatification project'. But really with one live tree for every 12 dead ones, it didn't make it beautiful. it just made you realize how much not-water there is here.
These are lines and figures etched into the sand by aliens hundreds, maybe millions of years ago. They are shrouded in mystery. The 4 questions are: how did the lines and figures get there, and why are they only visible from the sky? and why does one look like a cute little alien waving, and others look like UFO runways? think about those questions... Ill post some pics. really, knowone believes their aliens, we just think they are:)
this is the waving one. I found pieces of this little doll scattered across the desert. Andrea bought a guitar today. We will now be preforming on the streets for money. we are fairly nervous, but thrilled at the possibilities of a Peruvian talent scout discovering us.
Tomorrow we go to Cuzco. im really excited about that place. Lima is so dry. We drove 7 hours to Nazca and there were probably 6 living plants that i saw along the way. maybe a bit more, but really mostly sand dunes. There were little dead trees planted along the road, probably as some city's 'beatification project'. But really with one live tree for every 12 dead ones, it didn't make it beautiful. it just made you realize how much not-water there is here.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
white
i am watching the color leave my skin just a bit more every day. right now it seems to be blending in with the white computer im writing on. its funny, cause i don't feel worthless, and yet when i look at what im actually doing with my life currently, i realize i kinda am. Oops. Im not too worried about it, but the longer i sit here not making decisions the weirder i feel. is weirder a word these days? I've created a work situation that makes me have to make a change. I've let my job slip into non-existance because of traveling. i still have some really, really devout clients, but not enough to fullfill me. Financially or emotionaly.
My hold up on making a decision and change is this supposed oppurtunity to travel free with an organization. The problem is that it's a new organization and it's slow moving. the idea of free travel is enough to keep me waiting.
I talked to Ash yesterday. it was sad because i only had 14 minutes and it beeped to tell me that i only had one minute left and i felt so frantic and i didn't say i love you ash. so i want to say it publicly- I love you ash. there- thats better.
I actually am pretty satisfied with my life right now. i feel good emotionaly and spiritally. although it is so hard to keep spirituality constant. I seem to be in a relationship with a boy. its good. i am learning to comunicate a little better.
Just an update. there will be fun things to write about soon i hope...
My hold up on making a decision and change is this supposed oppurtunity to travel free with an organization. The problem is that it's a new organization and it's slow moving. the idea of free travel is enough to keep me waiting.
I talked to Ash yesterday. it was sad because i only had 14 minutes and it beeped to tell me that i only had one minute left and i felt so frantic and i didn't say i love you ash. so i want to say it publicly- I love you ash. there- thats better.
I actually am pretty satisfied with my life right now. i feel good emotionaly and spiritally. although it is so hard to keep spirituality constant. I seem to be in a relationship with a boy. its good. i am learning to comunicate a little better.
Just an update. there will be fun things to write about soon i hope...
Monday, December 24, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
best thing in my life.
Guatemala was absurdly amazing. During a few stages in my trip i had this thought: "My trip can't possibly get better than this." I thought this when i was with ash and todd, then in san andreas. But in my last two weeks i thought it once again. I was in an incredible little village on Lake Atitlan called San Marcos. I stayed in a beautiful 4 bedroom hotel with 6 other people and paid 30Q a night, which is equivalent to $4.50. I found a man that became my roommate. His name is David. He's a city boy from Miami, NYC and currently LA. He's an actor/writer. He was really funny. He was a lot like my dad. He taught me lessons like "Sara, when you leave the door open mosquitoes get in and bite me during the night." I learned so much from him. It was fun to have a roommate. The others in the hotel were Rio & Marcus from Canada, and Oliver from Switzerland and then 2 french girls that were crazy. we feared them. We had a nice kitchen that we took turns cooking dinner for each other. I never got a turn though.
San Marcos had a unique feel to it. It was full of people who were searching for their life path or 'truth'. You could feel the energy of good people looking for happiness and understanding of life. I felt really inspired by these people and by the common goal of many of us. I felt that the thoughts i had been having during my trip prepared me for this place that was full of light. I had experiences that gave me answers to questions I've had since i was 12 years old. I won't go deep into my experience, but i feel now that i know God, and i understand that he has a place in my life.
I recognize science as truth. I don't have any problems with science. I love that science never stops searching for more certainty and understanding within itself. It's not scared to admit mistakes and is continuously testing laws and theories. What a healthy way to live! i really like it. Never claiming truth, and always finding more answers because they are aware that we don't know everything. I reckon that religion could be more open to new truths, and be more encouraging of individuals testing and finding truth for themselves, rather than relying so heavily on the words of our leaders. Within the doctrine of the Mormon church, there is the concept of individuals seeking personal revelation, personal guidance and personal truth. But we forget to trust ourselves! We have forgotten the essence of religion, which i believe is to help people find a personal relationship with the Divine. But many of us (not all of us) have lost this essence in the systematization and clutter of religion. I have. I had to separate myself from the laws and order of religion to finally be in a place where i could find communication with God. I didn't know if it was OK for me to find Divinity alternatively, because it was so different than how i was taught to find God. But i know it was good. And i know God helped me get to that point. I asked this question: " Why now, and why in this way do i finally know God?" And i had the thoughts, 'Look where you are and look at everything you've discovered as truth. You would have had a different life if you had found out that God was there when you asked 15 years ago.' Im glad i am who i am.
I know now that it doesn't matter where or how you find truth, it is everywhere, and every person has a completely different path and a different understanding of truth. Whether it's science, nature, Buddism, Christianity, energy... God is the creator, and everything that is good is of Him. People are seeking him through so many different mediums. Scientist are seeking to understand his creations. Meta Physics is trying to bridge the gap between spirituality and science. (I find this really interesting). Any way. these are some of my thoughts right now. They are subject to change, but i think its important for me to share them anyway. I would love input or argument.
After i had this experience i felt like coming home. I was completely fulfilled and couldn't imagine anything better happening to me. Then i met a boy named Morris. (jeremy scot morris). But he hates jeremy scot. He is a beautiful boy. Everything about him. He was the only single boy i met in 8 weeks . I almost wrote him off because of how great a time I'd had alone. But he started talking to me on the cliffs on Wednesday and we spent the next 80 hours together until i left for Guatemala city on Sunday.
I've never connected with a boy on all the levels. the levels being: emotionally, spiritually, physically, humorly, and intellectually. Those are just my levels. i'm guessing there are documented levels of connection. i just don't know them. But i connected with Morris on these levels. But i think the best part about this boy was that he respected me. It was different. i felt so valued and i didn't feel that the physical part of our relationship was even in the top 3 of the levels of connection. And anyone who knows my history knows that is quite unheard of. We had a strong physical connection, but he never tried to make it sexual. I questioned him about this strange behavour, and he said "i am attracted to you, but i love being with you and not just for the physical part." (or something to that effect). I kept thinking maybe he wasn't real. but he was. i have pictures of him.
I figure this: I met Morris so i could see what a healthy relationship feels like. I don't know that we will ever be together again, although i do hope we might. But i learned something from him that i won't forget. It was so complete. His friendship and the understanding i gained from him was an incredible end to my trip.
and now to China...
San Marcos had a unique feel to it. It was full of people who were searching for their life path or 'truth'. You could feel the energy of good people looking for happiness and understanding of life. I felt really inspired by these people and by the common goal of many of us. I felt that the thoughts i had been having during my trip prepared me for this place that was full of light. I had experiences that gave me answers to questions I've had since i was 12 years old. I won't go deep into my experience, but i feel now that i know God, and i understand that he has a place in my life.
I recognize science as truth. I don't have any problems with science. I love that science never stops searching for more certainty and understanding within itself. It's not scared to admit mistakes and is continuously testing laws and theories. What a healthy way to live! i really like it. Never claiming truth, and always finding more answers because they are aware that we don't know everything. I reckon that religion could be more open to new truths, and be more encouraging of individuals testing and finding truth for themselves, rather than relying so heavily on the words of our leaders. Within the doctrine of the Mormon church, there is the concept of individuals seeking personal revelation, personal guidance and personal truth. But we forget to trust ourselves! We have forgotten the essence of religion, which i believe is to help people find a personal relationship with the Divine. But many of us (not all of us) have lost this essence in the systematization and clutter of religion. I have. I had to separate myself from the laws and order of religion to finally be in a place where i could find communication with God. I didn't know if it was OK for me to find Divinity alternatively, because it was so different than how i was taught to find God. But i know it was good. And i know God helped me get to that point. I asked this question: " Why now, and why in this way do i finally know God?" And i had the thoughts, 'Look where you are and look at everything you've discovered as truth. You would have had a different life if you had found out that God was there when you asked 15 years ago.' Im glad i am who i am.
I know now that it doesn't matter where or how you find truth, it is everywhere, and every person has a completely different path and a different understanding of truth. Whether it's science, nature, Buddism, Christianity, energy... God is the creator, and everything that is good is of Him. People are seeking him through so many different mediums. Scientist are seeking to understand his creations. Meta Physics is trying to bridge the gap between spirituality and science. (I find this really interesting). Any way. these are some of my thoughts right now. They are subject to change, but i think its important for me to share them anyway. I would love input or argument.
After i had this experience i felt like coming home. I was completely fulfilled and couldn't imagine anything better happening to me. Then i met a boy named Morris. (jeremy scot morris). But he hates jeremy scot. He is a beautiful boy. Everything about him. He was the only single boy i met in 8 weeks . I almost wrote him off because of how great a time I'd had alone. But he started talking to me on the cliffs on Wednesday and we spent the next 80 hours together until i left for Guatemala city on Sunday.
I've never connected with a boy on all the levels. the levels being: emotionally, spiritually, physically, humorly, and intellectually. Those are just my levels. i'm guessing there are documented levels of connection. i just don't know them. But i connected with Morris on these levels. But i think the best part about this boy was that he respected me. It was different. i felt so valued and i didn't feel that the physical part of our relationship was even in the top 3 of the levels of connection. And anyone who knows my history knows that is quite unheard of. We had a strong physical connection, but he never tried to make it sexual. I questioned him about this strange behavour, and he said "i am attracted to you, but i love being with you and not just for the physical part." (or something to that effect). I kept thinking maybe he wasn't real. but he was. i have pictures of him.
I figure this: I met Morris so i could see what a healthy relationship feels like. I don't know that we will ever be together again, although i do hope we might. But i learned something from him that i won't forget. It was so complete. His friendship and the understanding i gained from him was an incredible end to my trip.
and now to China...
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